Tuesday, 14 August 2018

Making Magic

I encountered an interesting article entitled, "You are a Magician". I was intrigued. It began with a definition of magic.

Magic is the Art and Science of causing change to occur in conformity with Will.

What does this mean? How does this apply to me? How can I be a magician? 

One of the best examples in my own life has to do with public speaking. As a result of certain events that occurred in my childhood, I lack self-confidence. Do not misunderstand me. I am very confident when practising my profession. I have developed skills and incorporated learning that fill me with confidence when I work. I know this stuff! 

BUT self-confidence is an entirely different matter. I do not or have not practised confidence in myself since about the age of 11. Why do I say this? Because I 'hide' myself. I do not inhabit the space I know as "self". In reality, for many years I did not even know myself. I was too scared to be myself because I was afraid no-one would like me. What do I have to offer to the world?

What does this have to do with public speaking and magic? I discovered, over time, that I love to teach. I love to share my knowledge because it is my belief that knowledge is power. I began to do this in every consultation until a client proposed that I gather some of my knowledge and present a workshop. I balked at the idea for a long time but the seed was planted. 

Slowly I began to think about what I would like to share and how I would do it. Part of this journey was to uncover my "self". I also realised that I needed some help in constructing presentations. I sought advice, watched webinars and attended workshops on public speaking. Today I can stand up in front of a room full of people and deliver a speech! 

I have created magic! 

I decided (my Will in the original definition) to pursue public speaking and now I am most capable(through desire and intent I have changed an aspect of myself). 

Magic = the Art and Science of causing change to occur in conformity with Will. 

Where have you set about to change a behaviour or mindset? Or built a business? Or stopped a childhood pattern that no longer served you? Where have you created magic?

This week I accepted that I am a magician AND so are you!

Wednesday, 1 August 2018


Just over a month ago I said goodbye to the best brindle Bull Mastiff in the world - my world - Arnie. 

I laid you to rest in huge hole but the emptiness on our plot is eerie in your absence and the void in my heart is unfathomable.

Despite my grief I rejoice in our memories. Pictures of an 11 week old puppy sitting in a cardboard box which you would later rip to shreds. Throughout your life you took pleasure in tearing apart boxes. What a glorious game! 

Our first Christmas together where you chewed on beer bottles and falling asleep that evening with a soft toy in your mouth. How you nurtured those toys - being comforted by sucking them to sleep at night - even more so when I had been away from home for a few days.

I recall teaching you to swim. You did it to please me and only later did I discover you disliked water splashing on your face. I was so proud when you completed your first water retrieve! A Bull Mastiff fetching an item out of a pond. What a boy!

What about your first Birthday that we celebrated at training with cupcakes and milkshakes for the humans and snack packs for the canine companions? We had a party again when you turned three. The doggie snack packs stayed the same but ours progressed to Savannas and savouries. After all, Arnie was 21! 

I was horrified the first time you charged down the driveway, hair erect, to intimidate the workers. I have no idea how they stood their ground and did not turn tail and run? I was often on the receiving end of such a burst of energy and intent. It took all my willpower to stand still knowing that you would shimmy at the last minute! BUT which way?

I was filled with pride when you learnt your recall. Walks became easier and we moved through our days with a little less trepidation knowing we could call you to heel. Well, only a little less trepidation... You frightened many people because of your sheer size. You realised you could elicit a reaction and you loved to play the 'scaring' game. Despite this scary side you were gentle. Our cats were drawn to you and you seemed to know who was part of our family and which cats were intruders - chasing away those that had not won your approval.

You were a model dog for the hydro. I have lost count of the number of times you made appearances in videos, to demonstrate an exercise or movement. We had loads of fun making those videos.


For almost nine years you have been the most incredible companion. In the end you taught me two very important things:
1. Like you namesake when he starred in The Terminator, I learnt to give the world (and sometimes people) the finger. In my mind I simply said, "#@%$ you asshole!" It was liberating.
2. During our last communication and for which I am truly grateful, you said, "Time is elusive, We have it, then we don't. Our physicality is elusive. We have it, then we don't. Our moments together are elusive. We have them, then we don't. But our love and bond are never elusive. Always present. Always there. It is always about love." 

RIP Arnie. The best brindle Bull Mastiff in the world.

Thursday, 12 July 2018

Growth and Change

I am surprised to see that my last post was more than a year ago! I promise not to bore you with all that has happened during that time! Suffice it to say that much has occurred which brings me to the title of this post.

Many people have come and gone from my life - in all spheres. Each time this necessitates change. For many change is scary and an enormous challenge. It is no different for me but I have come to welcome change because of the personal growth it brings. Sometimes I do hang my head in despair, move into victim mode, and randomly lament to the Universe, "Why me?" 

The answer to that question has motivated me to revisit writing. Putting pen to paper has always been a form of release for me. The process of writing allows me to arrange my thoughts and often receive answers and inspiration. Sometimes when I reread a piece in my journal I marvel at the fact that I produced it. I am encouraged to share my discoveries, tribulations, lessons and growth as part of answering the question, "Why me?" 

This blog has always been more about my ideas as opposed to a scientific discussion. So, I invite you to journey with me as I try to figure out what life is about. Share with me my troubles and my joys. Converse with me about what you have mastered and what remains a difficulty. 

Let's have some fun. Let's create magic!

Friday, 7 April 2017

South Africa in Turmoil

It is the 7th of April 2017 and thanks to decisions made by our President, South Africa is in turmoil and protest. I have spent the last 10 days vacillating between despair and anger. Writing always helps me to make sense of my emotion. How can I manage my fear of the future? And can I, one person, make a difference?

First, the fear. Fear is the opposite of love and separates us from others, planet Earth and Source. I am learning to be in my body by using mindful breathing techniques. I drop the ball alot! BUT the importance of being in our bodies is that it reconnects us to Earth and All That Is. There is a steadiness and steadfastness in this action - and comfort. Feel the love and lose the fear.

If I focus on the fear and uncertainty of our beloved country, I will manifest what I fear the most.

Second, making a difference. Simple actions speak very loudly. Louder than words. It is time to credit ourselves for the difference we make - everyday - in many lives. I made a decision to close my business today.


I am not an activist and have no desire to march but by saying 'No,' to business today I am saying 'No,' to what is happening in South Africa. I hope to encourage others to make a stand. The size of it is irrelevant. Just Do It!

I am in danger of being called naive. I do not buy into politics and I do my utmost to avoid drama. Simple practice of returning to my Source, being grateful and savouring the moment...that's the way for me.

Monday, 12 December 2016


Following on from my ‘Aspirations’ blog; a number of thoughts enter my mind and a few lessons have been learned.

What is abundance, and what does it have to do with aspiring to greatness?

When I embarked on this journey of discovery one of the first teachings I came across was “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne. “The Secret” taught me about the universal law of manifestation (another topic altogether) and that the Universe is abundant: abundant enough to see to all my needs and beyond, and that I have a right to participate in and enjoy this abundance.

Recently, I learned that in order to ‘claim’ my share of abundance, I must embrace myself and live fully in all my beauty and glory. This resonates with me. If I do not step up and be everything I can be in this world, then I am not fulfilling my role in the Universe. If I am living ‘small’ and not owning and using my talents then what contribution am I making to this abundant Universe. Nothing! And so I have no right to its abundance.

So, I ask again, “Do you aspire to greatness?”

I most certainly do! I am participating 100% in my abundant life!

You know what breaks me? When someone is visibly excited about a feeling or idea or a hope or a risk taken, and they tell you about it but preface it with: ‘Sorry, this is dumb but – ‘.

Don’t do that.

I don’t know who came here before me, who conditioned you to think you had to apologise or feel obtuse. But not here. DREAM so big it’s silly. LAUGH so hard it’s obnoxious. LOVE so much it’s impossible.

And don’t you ever feel unintelligent. And don’t you ever apologise. And don’t you ever shrink so you can squeeze yourself into small places and small minds.

GROW. It’s a big world. There’s room. You fit. I promise.”
-       Owen Lindley

Tuesday, 29 November 2016


Do you aspire to greatness?

My dad was a farmer, to support his family he worked the land, and raised cattle. One evening, when I was five, he came home from the fields and I declared to him, in my young enthusiasm, that I was going to be a vet.  Twenty years later, after what felt like a marathon of study and learning, I achieved that goal. I fulfilled that aspiration, and then came to realise that the hard work had only just begun! I was fortunate to become a partner in a veterinary business fairly soon after qualifying and I thought I would stay there until retirement.

Contrary to my expectations (and dare I say ‘aspirations’), the Universe had other ideas for my life. After a series of challenging detours and roadblocks, my career took a very different path. Today I find myself in the field of small animal physical rehabilitation which is a new and exciting profession and filled with its own, unique set of aspirations.

This journey has caused me to ask a number of questions about the nature of success and achievement. What determines greatness? Does the deemed status of a chosen profession determine greatness? Or is greatness measured in the currency of wealth? Does the ability to affect another person’s life determine greatness? Is a medical doctor any greater than a personal assistant? Does the status and extent of one’s followers and fans determine greatness? Does the life of Bill Gates have more value than the one led by Mother Theresa?

We all have a deeply embedded set of personal values, and these differ from individual to individual. For me, greatness is defined by how much kindness, honesty, determination and generosity of spirit a person displays in his or her life.

For me greatness revolves around being the best version of me that I can be. Will I make mistakes during the process? Of course! Will I veer off in the wrong direction every so often? Most definitely! Will I hurt the people I share my life with? Most certainly but, hopefully, never intentionally. Will I steadfastly follow my calling? Absolutely! Will I be considerate and respectful to all living beings? With all of my heart.

Mindful, soulful, whole living.

Do you aspire to greatness?     I do.

Sunday, 4 September 2016


Last week I examined a patient that I have not seen for more than two years. His original problem, discospondylitis, was successfully treated and Max is fully rehabilitated. He now has a soft tissue injury, hence the consultation.

After watching Max move, the three of us (patient, guardian and I) moved inside and sat down. Max settled on the mat and I began my history-taking. About 90 seconds into the conversation Max rises, steps onto the couch next to me and lays himself across my lap! Did I mention that Max is an enormous Rottweiler?

Why am I writing this in a blog? Max gave me an affirmation – absolute and honest. He has never done this before. For the rest of the day I walked around with a goofy grin on my face and my head in the clouds. My interpretation, “You’re okay Doc. I trust you so let’s get on with it.” Behaviourists may say something else, but this is my story.

What is the significance of Max’s action?

As humans, we need to be affirmed. We want others to acknowledge our kindness, generosity, effort or good deed. As Gary Chapman discussed in his book The 5 Love Languages, affirmation is one of my love languages. For how many other people is this true?

When was the last time you complimented a team member? Or smiled at the supermarket cashier? Or bought flowers for the person you thought was so kind? (Sam, this is you).

Simple actions can make such a difference – every day.


Since writing this blog Animal Health Solutions was nominated for the 702 and Sage Small Business Awards. Now that's affirmation!